The more you feel you are responsible for what's happening today, the closer you will be from the chance to commune with God
Why? It is because he is the One who is in charge, and thus he is the one who feels responsible more than anybody else does in the universe.
So, for you to feel responsible would develop the common factor for interaction/communion between you and God
Eventually those who have such heart cannot avoid to be revealed to the whole world.
Are you ready to be that person?
It is your choice; you are the only one to make that decision.
And don't worry, nobody needs to understand what you are doing, and nobody needs to appreciate what you are doing; You know what you're doing and God knows.