How can I start from untrue and arrive at God?

Let's say you can't love Mr. X.

Now you have realized how your love for Mr. X is untrue, but you still cannot love him for some reasons.

Your hope is that true God should be able to love Mr. X with true love

so, you will say, "God, because you do, I will do." ...but, you still cannot love him

so, next you say, "God, can you tell me how you love Mr. X?"

then say, "If I know how you do, I will do."

then ask, "God, how do you feel about what I said?"

Then, hours later, you realized that Mr. X had served as a catalyst to bond you and God in heart.

So, you will thank God for having given you Mr. X in your life.

And you learned to say, "God, because you do, I will do; because you do not do, I will not do."