Sunday, November 7, 2010

Some "evil spirits" experience

I had some interesting "spiritual" experience.
I don't know if you have "kanashibari (palsy? sleep paralysis?)" experiences.
Anyway, to make a long story short, last night some "spirits" bothered me when I was about to sleep. Some pressed different parts of my body with very heavy stuff, some tried to sting something sharp, some pulled some parts of my body, etc. It was pretty much annoying as usual.

Usually when this kind of things happen, I would say to them, "You again? Come on! Don't do it. Hey...why you do these things to me? what do you gain out of this? etc..." But last night...

Some sense of sympathy felt, and I thought they are not happy spirits. What if "I" have to do these things when I get to the next world? They may not know God, they may not know the truth, they may not have experienced love, they may be so lonely... Then I found myself praying to God, "Please remember them, sympathize with them. For some reason they must have ended up so miserable like this through their lives...but they are also your children. Please help them get liberated from their state..." I even found myself with tears.

And then some new thoughts came in, "I received so much of God's love, while there are so many who do not, including these guys. I don't give myself enough to help them. I felt so thankful but also so sorry for my not doing enough...I'm so sorry..."

and another thought, "without their bothering me I wouldn't have this kind of realization nor this kind of love and sympathy for them. I really thank them for their bothering me..." Then somehow, the "spiritual" atmosphere gradually changed with some kind of nice "colors" and feelings.

Then I felt those guys getting off from me and the one guy gently grabbed my shoulders with his both hands and gently massaged my shoulder one, two, three times and left.

Then I prayed and peacefully slept.

I learned that when certain unpleasant thing happen to me, I tend to react with complaint/unhappiness or react habitually, but instead of doing that, I should first be grateful, and then have giving (loving) attitude to others. Then I believe that type of love should be able to melt many obstacles built by resentment, hatred, etc.

After all, "love" is so important and so powerful!

2 comments:

Jo said...

To know another who is not known by anyone is to love him most,I think. You loved the spirit.

Philip said...

Dear Jo, thanks for your comment. I believe deep in our hearts, we have ability to genuinely love others, long for others, and do something good to others... and when someone gives something to us, we want to give him more... if we find a way to somehow unleash that part, then the nuclear explosion will happen!!!